不知道为什么想用华文来形容自己的心情。
现在的我是孤独与寂寞多想有你在身边陪着我，
每当我想你能听我诉苦时，
你都会嫌我罗索或是不在我的身旁，
想为你而改变但你又不珍惜，
难道只有朋友值得你去关心？
我为你付出不求回报，
之希望你能多了解我多关心我难道这邀求很过分吗？
你有没有想过为我改变现在的你？
爱情就像一盘花需要我们细心照顾才能开花结果呢？
一个人的付出是不够的！
你总是觉得自己是对的担人是没有十全十美的
人只能幻想自己有多完美
旦一且都是空虚的。
爱情让我体会到我是多没的软弱再也不是以前那么坚强的自己
但同时让我发现只要有你在我身旁我什么都愿意。
如果时间能永远停在我们相爱的那刻，
会是永远的快乐！
我只需要你的爱而不是承诺
如果有一天你离我而出
我又会是在哪里呢
只希望你能每分每秒都在我身边！
我林丽萍一身就爱的是叶启伟！
没有人能替代你！
I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH
TO LET YOU GO..

Well have nothing to do today so decided to do some cam-whoring in the office
so sick in this place wish i could get out n never come back but like this i will lose my income
really nothing to write about so upload some pics ...

Does it look so auntie ?
Recently due to sleep late at night
dark circle have been chasing me too.

This look more okay at least not that old 
haha...
Last week sat meet xing yi at Far East Plaza 
manage to take some photo with her with her phone
but, due to rushing her she accidentally delete all the photo i left wth one photo
of myself on my way home on the cab

With smoky eye shadow
Thanks to O2 skin they help me with it
and i got my brow trim at 3rd floor
her skill is good and is not ex is at 12 bucks
can give it a try !
Buy eye-shadows and lip-gloss from o2 skin is really cheap !
lipgloss is at 3.90 bucks haha...
Can go and buy as i think GSS is going to be over soon...
(:

Totally so depressed ! Getting sick of my job...
arghhh...Xing Yi was so angry now... I don't mean it but am rushing out too... -.-
I think i own someone in previous life so this life i must repay her..
So fcuking du lan now AND I DUNN HAVE ANYTHING TO VENT MY ANGER WANT TO WRITE HERE ALSO GET SCOLDED FOR NOTHING I WILL JUST STOP MY FCUKING ANGER HERE... today i was on m.c so never go to work stay at home and watch dear dear play dota , surf the net...it so humid today the wheather is also so fcuk up... everything just go chaos in the end at first was still happily shopping at the pasar malam with dear dear just now and now...(sigh) I just don't understand why most of the childrens can understand what am i saying and ony his daughter don't understand am speaking in chinese and not those fcuking ailn languages that human don't understand was so moody now i have no mood for anything i just want to get some bloody rest so shut your trap up ! ;(

Sorry for not updating... Have been so tired this feel days and felt so lazy to blog !
Am so boring in the office but is going 5pm now half an hour more i can go...
WoOhOo... Have been drawing for past half an hour want to see wad have i draw ?
Here We Go..
Cheers to the story that never end... (:

Want to see my new creation ?
is only one earring as it only left with one and it is so unique
that i bought it home and make into an earring

Nice look so Japanese right ?
the fan consist a picture of the phoneix flying 
at the back that a old pic which is very nice but too bad am using handphone de camera so can't be seen when i took it thinking of selling it off as am not suitable for this type of earring
drop off : 7.5
Material : the fan can be close and open
and swarovski crystal plus gold-plated ear-wire .
Any one can offer am thinking of selling at the price of 15 Bucks cause it quite expensive for the fan as you can see is so unique (:

an close up of the fan
will use camera to take a clearer pic of it if you like it please leave a comment i will reply asap !
=)

It been the 2nd week of june so first 17 days more i will have to count all the pay again !
Zzzz... It is better to sit there and get your then you count it and wait -.-
Yesterday dinner we went to sakura at science centre was so full but, this few weeks was like run out of energy feel extremly tired ! Went home around 10.30pm then clean up , polish my toe nails with the new bought o2 skin nail polish in pink need to apply for 3 layer then you can see the colour clearly then apply top coat wait about 5 mins went to sleep. The nails polish is fast dry as the sales lady told me the big bottle is more easy to dry and is true ! =)
Wake up 7am this morning First= toilet Second= shower and brush my teeth wash my face take my bag and set off to work ! x_x
Wear the another pair of heels i bought at Chrles and keith show you all the pic

My new shoe and I
it can't be seen clearly as am using powerpoint to edit it as there people checking our computer so i have to delete my adobe -.-'' So no more edited pics !!

Jess : You know me well enough to know my habit Lol... Bo bian but this time i spend most money on clothing and shoe ba never any how buy hehe =)

09 June 2008

Came to work early in the morning and wear the new shoe that i bought from
Charles & Keith and it flat. But, its killing my feet the skin tear and is so painful ! x_x
arww.. dear dear doesn't want to fetch me home fom my workplace but i don't know how can i walk home with my injured feet... going home soon around 10 mins =)

08 june 2008
Went to jurong point bought two pair of shoe from charles & keith as only there have wide variety of size 3 shoe ! I spend over 70 dollars for this two pair of shoe ! i waste alot of money already the rest must save up as allowance already can't spend anymore ! =x
Then meet dear dear and his family came back to jurong point again we watch kung fu panda !
it is really nice very funny ! rate it 8/10 ! The show finished at 10.30pm send dear dear daughter back then go back home reached around 11.30pm change my clothes and went to sleep guess am really tired i slept with the light on as dear dear is working hehe...

07 june 2008
Bring ah yi to far east plaza as she scared of taking the escalator so we took cab there and dropped in front of far east. First shop i went in was o2 skin bought the eyeshadow, mask & nails polish. Now GSS so things is quite cheap ,eyeshadow you will get a free one when you buy one , the mask is 3 for 10 bucks and i bought 10 for 25 bucks isn't it real cheap OMG !
join their member for free ! Then went THE Design buy a top i used to work there so the shirt original price was 29 bucks but i get an 20 % off thats make it 23 bucks. we went to eat the chicken rice at 5th level is not bad alot of ppl there we still need to wait. bought a black skinny jeans for 64 bucks so expensive my heart is aching ! End of the day i spend around 400 plus bucks ! arghh am broke no more money eeek...

It Had Been So Long Since I Last Update.
It Been So Busy This Few Days Counting Salary and do all those filing.
I finally got my pay but must tolerate can't spend on impulsive buying arwww...
Newt sat i will be going out with my sister finally got time to go out with them it been such a long time since i last saw JESS ! I MISS YOU SO MUCH ! haha And XING YI TOO !
we are planning to go town and eat cause k box is too expensive for me.
Am going to Far East Plaza later on bringing my aunt along going to buy ingridient for 925 sliver braclet going to make a nice one with it although i have so much crystal already but just sick and tired of them because is too messy and i doesn't have time to arrange it .
Just too tired of everything in life, recently that too much unhappiness happening at home making me so confused that i can do is help them to do the things that they doesn't have time to do !
if one days there is 48 hrs that will be good more resting time and gathering time ! =) Do you agree with me ? I beleive GOD send us here to try the good time & bad time to make us stronger but in love it just make us weaker ! i use to be a strong and sturborn girl but because of love i change i feel that am really weak that one day if he leave me i don't wish to be in this world again ! Time is rushing me got to go
Take care -.-

Am Just So Idoitic Sleepy ! X_x
Am so boring and stress up by work...OMG ! School is absolutely the BEST !
I don't know why recently, i have been so stress is like more worst off than exams !
I start to hate my job , my life indeed i got no life except there is Dear & Sister =p
No matter how i hate it i still must do it. Is like i really enjoy my job in the office but, i got scolded from boss this few days from that day i came back after my chalet ? I have forgot also it just like too much scolding won't work on me it only make me detest it more... -.-
Sister am so sorry i still can't confirm the date with you cause my pay get delayed again
wait patiently okays ?
Time really pass fast, and for this job i stay the longest but i believe when i got the knowledge and expreience i will find another better job ! 
Am totally pissed off by the accountant today , she wanted to please the boss but not the way you are doing. The tax invoices this month she want to do it so i let her be ! And she asked me how can i know whether this invoice had already been paid ? I told her to check previous month record and she understand. But, when there mistake she blame me Joyce you are giving more troubles ! well, this is what you want to do make the job complicated isn't it ? Simply just a sentence I CAN'T UNDERSTAND HER AT ALL !
Lets not talk about that anymore everyday am just get so angry ! I think i will have more wrinkles in some more time....
I have been sleeping quite early since i start work but. the dark circle just simply won't go off arwww...I notice that my looks had make me turn older seriously ! And there's breakout too after i start my medication what on earth is happening to me ! I don't wish to turn into an old granny even in a hundred years time ! Going to plan for pay can't spend everything away just like that need to start to be thrift and save for whatever purpose in the future !
But, for this month i have decided just buy an office bag , short heels , And go shopping with sister ! Budget not over 200 Bucks please Need to return my jiex 100 Bucks this month too am broke ! When i haven't even get my pay ?
Read a story today , find it nice and touching i think if Jess read it she will broke into tears !
Jess am going to buy it soon after i have read i pass it to you it is really a nice and touching story by local writer LOW KAY HWA. Title = I Believe You !
Readers you all can get it from any bookstore i think for 30 plus but it is really worth it !

So SORRY ! Didn't have much time to blog yesterday . -.-"
 anyway i wants to thanks Jess she the first to send me birthday greeting !
Orca you r the second but you are a friend that care for me ! 
And those at Friendster who send me birthday greeting too.
The last person who end it all was my best sis XINGYI !
Didn't went for any celebration yesterday also this year i felt mother love but, i miss the joys and laughter i used to have... I MISS YOU ALL MY SISTER ! & i miss school !

WAS SO ANGRY YESTERDAY ! guess who have the strength to made me fumed up like crazy ?
IT IS DEAR DAUGHTER ! *-* Just can't stop all those nosenses from her ! Lets the story begin.
Yesterday , after work i went to CCK Lot one Dear told me he will only be here around 8 plus
I was there at 6 plus so i waited for him. But, am hungry and i forgot to bring money so just have to wait ! Dear Dear came around 8 plus then we go packed rice for me i order chicken wings rice and takeaway as am tired after working for the whole day ! x_x Then we went home !
After that i start my dinner and i open it up guess what ?
I WANT CHICKEN WINGS ! Dear daughter making noise for the chicken wings
which i haven't even touch so i reply her can you hold on let me finish i will leave some for you !
And she just won't stop until her DAD "is only a chicken wing why must you fight over with kids !
so i give her ,one a min later her hand come across ! and grab another one and say I STILL WANT ! i didn't bother to make any noise cause i know if i do i will quarell with Dear again..
Then she continued to take like NOBODY BUSINESS ! In the end i only left with plain rice !
WTH ! HAVE YOU EVER HEARD AN HUNGRY MAN IS AN ANGRY MAN !
Later she went home and i tell dear that i only have rice for dinner  guess wad he reply ?
i only tell you to give her one why you give her all ? ok is ok i don't wish to make any noise for sake ! But, I HOPE CAN SHE STOP HER NOSENSES !
Dear also everytime wan me to go her way am not content k. That why everytime she doesn't give me any respect just because what you did in front of her !
Lets stop here anyway just a complain cos Dear won't even come and peek a sec of my blog !

 HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO ME !
I have turn 17 today..
going back home 
bye...